After this ends...

After this ends...i know nothing anymore..
i stop updating my blog...i go on facebook more often and i spend less time with you...
now i understand....things change..i agree...people's thought changes too...i agree....
but i hope u understand that I'm in the same class as her...you can't expect me to stop my connection with my classmates....same to you.
you can't stop your connection with her too....
After this ends....i know what to do...

When i told u that u were hanging out with her in JJ rather than me I'm actually not angry or anything...
is just that if u are asking her to come at least let me know...I'm not saying i hate her or anything but u can't pretend that you don't know she hates me...every single year she will find someone to hate...maybe thats her business but if she hates me..she will find those time to hangout with you so u won't have time for me...
this is not your fault...but still i can't stop myself from hanging out with her...just like you did...

time will change everything....i don't wanna lose a friend again...i dun wanna leave bad memories before i go to Australia....so please...

am i the one changing or u?

i dunno bout you but i think u or me have change....since this year started....we have less connection towards each other....you used to come to my place or i"ll go to your place when its recess time...but this year you went to li ming's table instead of mine....every time u come into my class....i never seen you walk to my place once...only after u walked to her placed then only me....is it me or you?

when its recess time...i always want to walk beside you but in the end i'm always walking alone all by myself with nobody....if u notice again....your always walking beside xin yi and not me....and whenever I'm alone walking behind you....and i wanna talk to you she keeps on keeping the conversation with you till i can't say a thing....is it me or you?

its time for exam and i studied super hard for this exam but have u ever asked me that do i know how to answer all of the question?NOPE....not once....and every time after exam we meet up next to the toilet you only asked me wanna eat....no...i think only once u asked me that....is it me or you?

you seems to not talk to me anymore....for more than any other person in this world....the most scary thing to loose is losing your best friend...and i think i just did....you dun seem to talk to me...i dun feel that important status in your heart anymore....remember when we were form 2 we used to go for recess together....when yong xin and nurul dumped me you held me up and treat me like I'm still being appreciated....from that moment i told myself that this person will be the person to stay with me forever and my best friend forever....
even though when we're in form 3 you still come to my sit....but  after a couple of months we started making gang and you started to hang out with li ming and xin yi....i just feel kinda left out....but i kept telling myself that its just temporary....but nope....it continued to this year and it still hurts even when your not talking to me and not even noticing me...every time u always ask me do i wanna eat...and i say no...cause i know its going to be the same old routine again that you will leave me behind of you and talking to xin yi the whole trip...do u know whats that feeling like for being dumped from your best friend?you just feel so left out till your fed-up to even talk anymore...thats why I'm so closed to Serena...cause she dun leave a single person behind...even though its a big gang but she still held on to you and always letting you know that she will be there when u need her...even if she is younger than me but she is matured enough to think this way...i didn't went down for recess with you all on Wednesday was because i was having gastric and i know even when your in my class you all will still drag the fucking time and when we're in the canteen its already time to go back to class...and on that day we had Chinese class test...when i saw you with them on the other side of the table i really wanted to walk towards you even if i was already eating half of my food....but the thing is that you dun seem to bother at all....i was so scared that you would get angry and everything...but no....you just look so relax and all....is it me or you?

after nine months...

after nine months we still meet...

from last year's June till now...has been nine months...

i have not dated a single person since then...

i broke your heart from the start and now i am breaking mine to return the guilt i have in me...

i have no reason to tell you not to love another girl....

u have the right to love a person u really like....

i have no reason to tell you that i regretted breaking up with you...

u have the right to tell me to step back from your life....

your daily routine...your school life n tuition time schedule.....

i wrote down once and now its all in my head....

nothing can erase those in my brain....

for you i memorize your daily schedule....

for you i studied freakin' hard....

but i know i still cant be with you even if you accept me back....because i am a retain student...

and for that i will embarrassed you....

i would rather let you be with another girl and start a sweet relationship with her....

and let me be the one to suffer all your pain n hatred....

i wish to go back to the past and keep back my words...

i wish to go back to the past and tell you i love you....

i wish to go back to the past and let you know that no matter what decision i make is wrong...

i just want you back...

it really hurts to hear it from other people that you have another girl friend....

it really hurts to hear it from others that you liked another girl....

i wish i did not said those awful words out and break up with you....

just wish it never happened.....

boring holidays T.T

actually by this time i should be doing my school holidays homework....
but i just dun feel like it....
its so boring and i dun even feel like writing....other than my piano homework....
there is nothing else i will be writing...
i just wanna go out with my classmates but all of them aren't available....
i just miss them so much...
but currently i am still watching at Korean & Taiwanese Drama to waste my precious time....
Korean: 1. Mary stayed out all night

Wi Mae Ri is the cheerful, pragmatic daughter of a failed businessman who had grown used to being constantly on the move to escape from debtors. She becomes fast friends with the free-spirited indie singer Kang Moo Kyul when she nearly ran him over in a car. Meanwhile, her father Wi Dae Han is saved from his debtors by his old friend, Jung Suk, who had just returned from considerable success in the Japanese entertainment industry. Jung Suk, who had harboured a secret love for Mae Ri's mother, sets up a deal with Dae Han to have Mae Ri marry his son, Jung In. In her desperate to escape this predicament, Mae Ri begs Moo Kyul to pose as her husband, and finds herself in even more trouble than before when her father proposes a 100-day period in which she has to divide her time equally between Moo Kyul and Jung In, after which she has to decide who to marry.

Taiwanese Drama: 1. Autumn's Concerto

                             2. Gloomy Salad Days

                             3. P.S. Man

although i have all this movies to accompany me to waste my time but i still think that i feel boring without my friends...T.T

i miss you girls...

Chia Wern

Vii Vii

Egg

Punkxkkin

Ming

May

Mush

Sin Yii

etc.

Mary stayed out all night[Korean Drama]

I've been watching this Korean Drama lately

[Mary stayed out all night/Marry me,Mary]

this drama is based on a girl named Mary (Marry Christmas) =P

she is the daughter of a failure businessman that owes people allot of K.R.W

[Korean Won]

and there is a guy name Kang Moo-Kyul a.k.a Jang Geun Suk

who is a rock star in Hongdae and is the vocalist for his band.

(super duper handsome!!!!)

he sings in bars and wish to be a star one day but all the offers only gave to him but not his band..

until one day Mary's father met his old childhood friend that is very rich and very powerful in Japan

since he came back and know that Mary is the daughter of his friend.

he is willing to pay off all his debts in 1 condition...

is to married his daughter into his family...

sounds very interesting right...

they are in youtube now and its uploaded till episode 5.

stay tuned! =)

boring holiday starts..

my nightmare and also my dream came true...

my holidays are finally here and i finally get to sleep like a PIG~

i think this is the 3rd day of holiday and i am complaining already...

this holidays really is boring..

due to the politics and those perverts out there...

i have to lock myself at home and face my laptop everyday...

THIS SUCKSSSSS!

i miss my friends so much...

wish to see them...

i missed the trip to lagoon with them and now i think i won't be able to go to the BBQ party either..

so sorry friends...

if i can make it i will surely attend...

dun worry..

 걱정하지마

내가 너희들을 사랑해

i wish to see you guys soon...

i really wanna get out of this house...

i think i am going to be rotten if i am still stuck in this house...

oh ya,

my mum bought me a pair of new shoe...

its brown in color and i love it allot...

THANK YOU MAMA~

고맙습니다

i'll be showing the pic real soon...

shout out to my friends....

Chia Wern

ViiVii(just saw her in jj ytd)

Egg Ying

my baby girl: punkkin orange

Lee Ming

Mushroom

Jo-yee

Siin Yii

May May etc.

3.11.2010~

almost finishing my [playful kiss] movie...
this movie really is a nice movie....
i think if in reality...i was Oh Ha Ni...
i think i will be the happiest girl in the world...
having a husband that is so cool...
so smart...
so well-mannered...
so polite...
and so caring and loving to me...^^
but thats still a long way to go....
cause now i have my husband and his my school and books...
though i really hate studying...
but to be in good grades and not to disappoint my parents...
for now their my husbands....

last day of exam

finally finish all my exams...
feel very weird...
i feel like everything is so relief...
like i am flying now....
I'm so free....like a bird...
like flying in the sky freely...
really love this moment...^^

todays exam was hard....
really thought i was gonna lose in this game...
but i think i won't cause i will still fight for it to go to form 4...


didn't went anywhere today...
though its the last day of exam...
friends are having volleyball game tomorrow...
gotta support them~
love you guys....


watching all my Korean movies starting by now....
=P
feel so free so gonna watch like a crazy girl like i was...xP
this will be the best day ever for me....
target: watch finish the whole series [this is gonna take me 24 hrs]
big black panda eyes will be under my eyes tomorrow....

history...

2days exam is seriously hard....
i memories all of them with my own way but most of them i think is gonna fail...
i dun understand why is it harder than our grad exam...
but 2moro's maths better be a easy one cause if it isn't then i'll be DOOMED!
can't go out 2moro so will be staying at home doing nothing but playing computer...T^T
feel like going karaoke 2moro cause feel like singing...haiz...
gotta face lots of things now....
my performance that i didn't even said i want to...
a new piece for my cousin brother...
haiz...
really frustrating with all of this....
just wish to go out and scream like a crazy woman....

my sister's keeper

just watched this show yesterday...

the most touching & romantic show i have ever seen.

[the only way to save your daughter,is to sacrifice her sister.]

this is the topic that attracted me.

it isn't about what life should be looked at or things should be seen to..

this show teaches me that family is always my 1st priority..

and the relationship between sisters is forever,even though u r a engineering baby.

things doesn't have to be like it is plan for but it should be how we look at it...

highly recommended.

www.blinkxx.xom